I figured the best time to squeeze in a workout with my busy schedule is over my lunch break. Problem with that is... someone might see me!!! So? Big whoop? Why does that matter in the least bit? All very good questions. The answer is simple... I've got issues.
Instead of enjoying a beautiful sunny day, a view of the mountains in the distance, time away from my computer, time to MYSELF, I was scrutinizing over the dumbest things. I was stressed out that a co-worker would see me. I was stressed out that my ass was jiggling more than I would like it too. I was stressed out that I tied my jacket around my jiggly ass and now I looked like a frumpy old lady. I was stressed that I shoved my gigantic boobs into a very tiny sports bra and with every step the giant bubble that was created was practically hitting me on the chin!! I was so consumed with my insecurities it ruined something positive that I was trying to do for myself.
I need to get out of my head! I need to just "be." That will be hard. I saw my therapist last night... remember that Sex and the City where the girls convince Carrie that she needs to see a therapist because they can't handle hearing her drone on about Mr. Big?
- Carrie: [about therapists] First they want you to come there two times a week, then three times a week, and eventually you're starting every sentence with 'my therapist says...'
- Miranda: My therapist says that's a very common fear.
Working out during your lunch break is a great goal, though! I have often tried to do it early in the morning. It's hard, but so worth it. -kate
ReplyDeleteKate, early in the morning is sooo hard! I just don't know if I can possibly wake up any earlier than I already do. But at least being at home I can be more comfortable and focus on the workout. You are right, it will be worth it! :)
DeleteHow are your workouts now? Hmm, you really need a new sports bra that will fit you perfectly, if that is the case. Also, I think you shouldn't be insecure with what other people think about. Sometimes, you need to go out and explore the world by yourself and prove them that you're capable of doing it. :)
ReplyDeleteRegards,
Ted
That was the only thing running through my head as I attempted to workout over my lunch break. I really want to start exercising regularly again. full figure bras
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