Thursday, June 21, 2012

Warning: Hormonal Pregnant Woman

Stupid hormones.  Why do they exist anyway?  Why is it that I'm fine and dandy then, BAM!!  I morph into a whole different person before I even now what happened?!?!  Why do I feel happy and content one minute, then feel overwhelmed with sadness and could cry at the drop of hat the next?

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It isn't fun.  Especially because I can't control myself.  I know deep down that as I am flying off the handle to Hubby about something I am completely over reacting, but I can't stop.  My blood pressure rises, the tears flood my eyes and my voice kicks into high gear.  It is all pretty ridiculous but I can't stop it.  What's hard is that whatever it is I am upset about is completely legit and is genuinely bothering me, but my reaction is what is uncalled for.  On a good day the same "problem" may still upset me but I'd be able to address it in a constructive and adult way.  On a hormonal whim however, I address the problem like a thirteen year old girl.  The issue at hand is still important to address but it loses all merit with my hormonal, out of control antics.

I don't remember being this way when I was pregnant with Baby Boy and I really don't like it.  I know it is part of the process and even when I'm not pregnant there are times when hormones get the better of me, but not like this.  This is a whole new level!!

Today is pretty bad.  I'm feeling down in the dumps and I want to burst into tears, crawl into bed and just cry until I feel better.  I don't know why.  Nothing has happened to me to make me feel this way but I can't shake it.  I attempted to cheer myself up by buying myself coffee and breakfast this morning but it didn't do the trick.  Plus I'm feeling bad about being a heinous you-know-what to Hubby this morning because I was upset about something silly.  Heck, I'm feeling bad about being a heinous you-know-what to Hubby a lot lately! :-/  I even had a hard time dropping Baby Boy off on my way to work this morning because his sweet little face was actually helping me to feel better.  (sigh) 

It's going to be a long day but it is also going to get better.  I am mindful of the fact that I need to work on my behavior a bit but it is also ok to admit I can't control the hormones and I am only human.  I'm doing the best that I can and although I could really use a giant hug and permission to cry it out, I also know that really won't solve anything.  So back to work I go hoping productivity will help distract me from this funk. 

Funk you, hormones!  


  1. ok, I seem to be going through most of this stuff too ... but I swear I'm not pregnant. which means one of two things ... I'm either sick or ... ok, that's the only thing it could be. hang in there!

  2. Hormones are never fun. I found great relief in utilizing soy products to help even out my hormones. I used Soy Protein Isolate in Fruit Smoothies, but I'm sure you could try anything with soy, such as tofu, soy milk, etc.