Warning: Hormonal Pregnant Woman

Stupid hormones.  Why do they exist anyway?  Why is it that I'm fine and dandy then, BAM!!  I morph into a whole different person before I even now what happened?!?!  Why do I feel happy and content one minute, then feel overwhelmed with sadness and could cry at the drop of hat the next?


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It isn't fun.  Especially because I can't control myself.  I know deep down that as I am flying off the handle to Hubby about something I am completely over reacting, but I can't stop.  My blood pressure rises, the tears flood my eyes and my voice kicks into high gear.  It is all pretty ridiculous but I can't stop it.  What's hard is that whatever it is I am upset about is completely legit and is genuinely bothering me, but my reaction is what is uncalled for.  On a good day the same "problem" may still upset me but I'd be able to address it in a constructive and adult way.  On a hormonal whim however, I address the problem like a thirteen year old girl.  The issue at hand is still important to address but it loses all merit with my hormonal, out of control antics.


I don't remember being this way when I was pregnant with Baby Boy and I really don't like it.  I know it is part of the process and even when I'm not pregnant there are times when hormones get the better of me, but not like this.  This is a whole new level!!

Today is pretty bad.  I'm feeling down in the dumps and I want to burst into tears, crawl into bed and just cry until I feel better.  I don't know why.  Nothing has happened to me to make me feel this way but I can't shake it.  I attempted to cheer myself up by buying myself coffee and breakfast this morning but it didn't do the trick.  Plus I'm feeling bad about being a heinous you-know-what to Hubby this morning because I was upset about something silly.  Heck, I'm feeling bad about being a heinous you-know-what to Hubby a lot lately! :-/  I even had a hard time dropping Baby Boy off on my way to work this morning because his sweet little face was actually helping me to feel better.  (sigh) 

It's going to be a long day but it is also going to get better.  I am mindful of the fact that I need to work on my behavior a bit but it is also ok to admit I can't control the hormones and I am only human.  I'm doing the best that I can and although I could really use a giant hug and permission to cry it out, I also know that really won't solve anything.  So back to work I go hoping productivity will help distract me from this funk. 

Funk you, hormones!